"We dived deep into our darkness, but when we saw light disguised as darkness, we couldn't see ourselves." -Alex Ftoulis
I would like to talk about Twin Flames. About real, raw, authentic, Twin Flames. This rare, unique and exaggerated in all of its aspects connection (not a relationship of any kind as it exceeds all that we all knew so far). And YES, I am one of the real rare Twins and I am not ashamed to show my pride for that, cause blood was shed in that process.
I was on a mission. Suddenly out of nowhere, I came up with the idea of creating a place where we could share our knowledge and services to people, especially the young people of our country. I had no intention or what so ever to meet my Twin Flame as I didn't have a clue what was that, neither I was in a mood of any connection as I just left from a toxic relationship which also played role afterwards in me breaking up with my Twin.
I would not go into details how I met her or what happened but I will talk about what matters the most.
From not wanting to make a connection to falling in love, heart chakra activation through the bubble phase, everything so intense down to the last second, everything so fast, synchronicities went to the roof.
Everywhere 22 everywhere 33. I was 33 she was 22. Her house number 22, mine 33. Just endless...
Then more numbers popped up. More crazy occurrences and syncs that made no explanation.
We had a plan room dedicated to our business and mission where we planned our seminars but at the same time, we were decoding the sequences of the synchronicities where we discovered a lot of important information regarding the truth of the composition and functions of Reality and also about us individually.
I was the master teacher. She was the master builder. Together we were ONE.
But the dynamic was just too strong to handle...
Cause for a master teacher to be complete, a master builder must be in place to activate the currents of energies which will bring the desired alchemical psychosomatic transmutation required for the next step into this game of Ascension.
The channeling was out real from both of us to each other. We still can't explain most of what happened.
We kept "downloading" a ton of information, and we transferred it to endless pages of notepads day and night, almost literally.
Falling in love was intense. The moments? Simply magical. But it wasn't all honey and fun.
All the narcissistic behaviors were there, the running away with no explaining and without no apparent reason, no replying to anything beginning from 1 week and ending up 1 and a half month where she appeared one day before my birthday to tell me she was leaving for some other country with no reason, no explanation, nothing.
She actually asked me what was the worst thing she could ever do to me one day we had a conversation on unconditional love and she just did it.
While we were so deep in love.
You see, fears can do a lot of things. BUT it's not your Twin Flame.
It's YOU. The Twins are called like this, as they reflect ALL of your insecurities as they know you for lifetimes and lifetimes and they only want you to be free eventually. YES, they also have fears and issues but it's not the blaming game when it comes down to Twin Flames.
It's just about the recognition of our own deepest personal issues which some of them are:
Narcissistic Behaviours of any kind
Attachments in Relationships
Not having safe boundaries
Expectations of all kinds that exceed reality and they are out of our power
Learning how to Love under any circumstance.
We also knew instantly that we were connected through lifetimes of reincarnations and even with details.
We had so many similarities, which still today I can't find to anyone else.
This is what makes Twin Flames so addictive. Their connection is so powerful and their harmonizing points just mesmerizing.
It's everything you ever wanted.
But also at the same time, your worst fears are unfolding into the most chaotic and confusing reality you've been through.
Your Twin is on a mission to deliver to you the lessons NO MATTER WHAT.
So you have to keep forgiving, listening and keep on moving.
Twin Flames have a blend of a Soulmate, Karmic and Narcissistic taste and you finally know why? Because all of these attributes reside within you and need a proper balance in order for you to advance and to grow even further.
All these limitations are a nightmare for your Twin in the 5th dimension and they do everything they can in order to break these barriers away, and here in 3D it seems like they are runners, untrustworthy, narcissists, etc, etc.
So we must never judge them, BUT if things already took a wrong turn just RUN. Because the Narcissistic Mode will be activated and the attacks will transcend in a different whole new level, making this mess a sheer horror movie.
Ok, now let me give you this little info.
HOW THE H@#$ do you think Universe will help you let go of your old egoic patterns which cause your limitations? By sending you an advertising flyer? NO. With the perfect trap which EVERYONE in this world would have fallen for.
The addictive kind of Love which is created mostly by Stockholm Syndrome and a variety of attachment psychological issues. THIS is the attraction point which the Universe uses to attract your Twin Flame. Your need to heal your other half and become complete. So you are mostly attracting wounded people or needy narcissists.
You think I didn't want her or I didn't wish so many times that things didn't turn out like that?
The emotions I felt during our connection both good and bad were out of this world. You are with this person both in Hell and in Heaven, you are connected in every possible way, BUT don't expect to match completely now in this world.
She came back after almost 5 months but her own version of the story I heard it from her after a year from the date she left.
And still, most of it didn't make sense. The one I loved so much, just an empty cold hearted person which no one recognized.
But you deeply know that this is not her. You know that you are both going through a highly advanced and well-designed process, able to change anyone, rapidly and in an extreme way.
One of this processes was the Dark Night of the Soul. We both went through this but when we were apart and at different countries. A process which left us literally with no smiles, no emotions, emptier than ever before.
This particular process is ignited mostly by the energy dynamics of the "runner phase", a trigger point which ignites the deepest, spiritual but dark process of the DNOTS.
See, real Twin Flames is not about a romantic fairy-tale, but a shocking, extreme, out worldly experience that shakes you, scares you, reveals all of your wounds and when is finished you can't hate your Twin as you realize their extreme significance in your Path and Evolvement to your higher, better version of you.
How was your own experience?
Is your Twin Flame still by your side or are you on different missions?
Did you get the lesson, advanced and moved on? Let me know in the comments bellow.
by Alex "Angel" Ftoulis